A Conversation - Love

 The evening is quiet, save for the distant hum of the city which feels miles away from our sanctuary. A cool breeze flows through the vast balcony, carrying the faint, sweet scent of night-blooming jasmine. We are relaxing leisurely—my head rests comfortably in her lap, her fingers walking, dancing gently on my chest. The rhythm of her touch is soothing, grounding me in the present moment.

Beloved: She traces a line on my forehead, smoothing a frown I didn't know was there. Her voice is soft, blending with the breeze.

"Last time, we went so deep into the dark waters of the subconscious. It was necessary, I know, but it felt so heavy. Shall we discuss something lighter today? Something soft?"

Me: I close my eyes, taking a deep breath and enjoying the peace of the moment.

"Yes. Let’s talk about Surrender. It sounds heavy to some, perhaps even weak, but it is actually the lightest state of being."

Beloved: "Surrender? That sounds like giving up. Like losing control to someone else."

Me: "That is what the mind thinks. But let me explain it differently. Typically, when we want something, we use our mind to plan and execute, right? For example, if I want money, I immediately think about doing a job or starting a business to earn it. My focus becomes the result: the money."

Beloved: "Is that wrong? We all need to survive."

Me: "It isn't wrong, but it is limited. If the primary intention is just 'earning money,' it may even backfire. But look deeper. What is the true reality of a job or a business? It is Service."

Beloved: She pauses her fingers for a moment, thinking. "Service..."

Me: "Yes. When we shift our focus from 'earning' to 'serving,' something shifts inside. We stop calculating. We pour our heart and soul into the work because we want to provide the best possible experience to those we serve. In those moments of total involvement, we temporarily forget our Ego—the voice that says 'I am so & so or I am so important' or 'Why should I do this small task?'"

Beloved: "And when the Ego is forgotten?"

Me: "God wakes up. When the 'I' is gone, what remains is pure Consciousness. In simple words, we are allowing God to work through our body. That is true surrender. It opens the doors for creativity and innovation because the limited 'little self' is out of the way paying the way for universal intelligence (God).

Beloved: "But does it really change the outcome?"

Me: "It changes everything. There is a vast difference between doing something with the Energy of Ego and the Energy of God. I call that God-energy 'Love.'"

Beloved: "Can you give me an example? Something simple."

Me: "Think of a mother cooking food. On some days, she might cook out of Duty. She thinks, 'I am the mother, I have to do this.' That is the energy of the ego. The food will be edible, of course. But on other days... she cooks out of Love. She forgets herself. She isn't thinking about her duty; she is just flowing. In that state, she has surrendered. And we all know that food tastes magical (automatically she becomes creative in those moments). It heals. That is the difference."

Beloved: She smiles, looking down into my eyes with a warmth that matches the night air.

"You know... when you speak about love like this, it makes me want to say those three words to you. 'I Love You.'"

Me: I smile back, reaching up to brush a strand of hair from her face.

"It is sweet to hear. But to me... that phrase is often just a sign of ignorance."

Beloved: She laughs softly, a little surprised. "Ignorance? That is not very romantic."

Me: "Hear me out. Love happens only when we forget our Ego. But the moment you say 'I' Love 'You,' you have brought the Ego back. You have created a separation: there is an 'I' here and a 'You' there. But if the Ego is truly gone... who is the 'I' and who is the 'You'?"

Beloved: "Then what is happening between us right now? Is this not love?"

Me: "Take our case now. We are both fully relaxed. There is no trace of ego. God is just flowing through both of us, getting the best out of this moment. A common man looking at us might say we are 'loving' each other. But usually, in the world, people just 'Like' each other because conditions are met and they call it love."

Beloved: "Conditions?"

Me: "Yes. He likes her because she is beautiful. She likes him because he is earning well and life seems secure. Their vibes match. It is a transaction. It feels messy to me because if the conditions change, the feeling goes. Real Love is nothing specific to a man and a woman. It is just God flowing."

Beloved: "So it changes shape?"

Me: "Exactly. If you are sitting next to me leisurely like this, Love expresses itself playfully and romantically—making fun, laughing, holding you. But if someone else were here—a parent, a child, or even a bird—that same Love would express itself differently, perhaps as care or silence. If I am at the office facing a problem, Love moves as an unexpected solution. It is always just Love, expressing itself appropriately for the circumstance."

Beloved: "It seems to apply to everything. Even... gifts?"

Me: "Especially gifts. Sometimes, we feel gratitude for someone—parents, teachers, friends—and we feel like buying them something. If we do it with our usual attention (the Ego), we get influenced by corporate marketing. We buy what is 'trending.' But if we switch off the Ego and let God flow... we might realize they don't need a product. Maybe they just need our time. Or we might find something simple that is actually useful. We become dynamic."

Beloved: She looks away from me for a moment, gazing out from the balcony. Across the street, the glass windows of a Gym are glowing in the night. We can see people running on treadmills, lifting weights, working hard.

"Look at them. So much effort. Everyone wants to be fit."

Me: "Yes. Lights are on, people are sweating. Some go there to lose weight, and some go there just for a 'Shape.' To me, chasing a shape is often more to do with the Ego—wanting to look a certain way for others."

Beloved: "But health is important, isn't it?"

Me: "It is. But even weight loss can happen through surrender. When we eat attentively—forgetting the ego and letting God flow—we naturally get satisfied with less. We avoid unnecessary snacking. The digestive enzymes release properly. The body finds its balance without the struggle. Love does that too."

Beloved: She is quiet for a long time, her fingers moving slower now. "Love does everything... But if Love and God are everything, why was the Ego created? Why do we feel separate?"

Me: "That is the great mystery. Think of an orchestra. Different musical instruments give different sounds. Alone, they are distinct, but combining them harmoniously results in great music. Similarly, different bodies have different energetic signatures—what we might call a soul. When the same God flows through different signatures, different outcome comes and all together creates beautiful world with lot of diversity. But this difference somehow appears as Ego. Even I am not fully clear on how that transition happens, but perhaps the variety is needed for the music of life."

Beloved: "We should write this down. Whatever we discussed today... I think it would be useful to everyone."

Me: "Maybe"

Beloved: "Only maybe?"

Me: "I say 'maybe' because this discussion happened purely in this flow. It is perfect for us right now. Our discussion, and indeed any creative work from the past, should be taken as inspiration—an invitation to let God flow through us. It is not meant to be blindly followed. It should be taken as an inspiration that God has flow through them and it can flow through us also. Following another is merely an act of the Ego. Allowing God to flow through you is the only way to be truly accurate to the circumstance you are in."

Beloved: "So we shouldn't just follow?"

Me: "Yes. We sat leisurely with no intention. We just let Nature take over. We never expected this outcome.  We never know the outcome when we allow Love to take over, but it will always be perfect for the circumstance—creative, innovative, and more importantly, full of contentment."

Beloved: "It feels... complete."

Me: "That contentment is what the world is missing. Lack of this contentment makes people run mad (thinking their external acts will bring the contentment)—buying things, conquering positions, creating complex philosophies, expanding religions, creating drama. They are all searching for this."

Beloved: "Searching for what? This simple relaxation with a beloved."

Me: "The simple act of allowing God to flow through us and it naturally brings us contentment"

Appendix

Think of Love as pure white light. When this white light passes through the prism of the Ego, it splits into many different colors—happiness, sorrow, jealousy, anger, and fear. They look different, but in reality, they are all just that same original Light, refracted through a limited mind. — Vijay Chekuri

"Love is not a relationship. Love is a state of being. It has nothing to do with anybody else. You are loving, just as a flower is fragrant. The flower does not choose to whom it should give its fragrance." — Osho

"The moment you change your perception is the moment you rewrite the chemistry of your body." — Bruce Lipton

The moment the ego disappears and divinity takes over (perception changed*), you are actually rewriting your body’s chemistry, signaling every cell to heal and thrive. 

*Change your perception, and you change your feeling. Change your feeling, and you change your energy. Just observe yourself—how different does your energy feel when you are angry compared to when you are joyful? I am not asking you to suppress anger, but it may not come often when you are more aware of life as we discussed.