The Void 4 | Mohini

 The night air was cool on the terrace as we walked, the vast, starry sky stretching out above us in silent majesty. I slowed my pace, looking at the city lights below, then back to Mohini’s face. In the stillness, a deep revelation surfaced, one that had been whispering to me throughout the hectic, noisy day.

I told her, "Mohini, today, in the middle of the most chaotic part of the day, I suddenly felt a profound, pleasant weight inside me. It was the exact same, sweet frequency I feel when I am here with you—that sense of absolute, unconditional love."

But as I held that energy, a quiet voice from the depths of my consciousness spoke a warning: "You are receiving a raw, divine energy, but your mind is rushing to dress it up. You are instantly turning this formless, infinite power into a familiar scene of being with your beloved."

It was a startling realization. My mind had been acting like a filter, immediately taking the raw, expansive energy of the Infinite and boxing it into a concept it already knew—the comfort of a romantic moment.

We all do this. We take the boundless, unconditioned energy of the Divine and we try to "understand" it, "name" it, or "place" it into a scenario that feels safe and familiar. We think we are experiencing the Divine, but we are actually just experiencing our own mental image of the Divine.

The voice within cautioned me: If I could simply learn to hold that raw, unconditioned energy—without letting my mind grasp at it, without letting it dissolve into a known memory or a specific scene—I would experience something infinitely grander. I would be touching the source itself, not just its reflection.

Standing there under the vastness of the sky, I realized that practice is everything. I want to learn to hold that "pleasant weight" as it is, in its pure, formless state, before the ego can rush in to interpret it.

By refusing to turn the energy into a "thing" I already know, I am finally opening myself to the "Unknown." And in that Unknown, there is no limit to what can be revealed.